2009 came and went before i realised it.

i looked into the mirror and did some reflections ^

so, looks like i'm gonna be 16 next year?

well its great man, i mean you learn and mature as you age. I remember in the book *tuesdays with Morrie* the author wrote that people in the 40s always said " if only i was 25..", " if only i was 19 again" and you know what this means? unfulfilled lives, they want to go back to relive that year, to make up for things that they didn't do, chances they missed, and things lost.

it kinda struck me that making each day count was so important, because you're sure that everyday is the day you're proud of, instead of waking up each morning and can't remember whether it was a wednesday or friday.

As for me, for year 2009, its the year that made me learn, made me experience stuff i didn't get to, made me endured hardships, made me persevere.

1st, i got it straight, i remembered at the start of the year y'all were getting irritated because almost all my posts are about being in 3J and i ranted how i hated it.

But now i laughed, i laughed because now i realized how foolish i was!

so what if i'm in a class where everyone doesn't make that much fun?

its alright, i accept it, in a class, we have lessons together and i'm glad that i'm one of them in class 3J. Its like learning how to embrace and forgive, you have to take a step back, change your mindset, see things differently. So what if we lack fun? we can make it all the same :d

2nd, 2009 is the year which i made new friends! :D

THATS THE THING. when one sense weakens another arises.

i felt lonely in 3J, before. This actually made me cherish all my friends beside me although they're not in my class. i look forward being the first to step out of 3J and step in 3I to look for the prince charming haha. And through joining the band, the subsequent process made me feel valued because i'm part of it. Made new friends through it, hugged them and the next thing i know we're together buying lunch or heading to the basketball court together. Thats what i mean ;P

And 2009 is the year i came so close with death, for the first time.

Ever since my beloved grandmother left me almost 5 months ago, i've been thinking so much for everyday in the 5 months, i stared into the deep turquoise sky and i wondered whether she's up there looking over me, everytime when its time to burn incense paper i'll make a wish to my grandmother, that is : please like me see you again.

Its that form of pain i've never experience before. Its like bitter saddness and at the same time fear.

Before i know it it just happened, overwhelmed, unexplained.

its just not fair, why at this time?

i know, fairness doesn't govern life and death. But i';m not at all prepared or even dare think about it. i'm scared of this issue, so i run away from it.

But before i realise it, it found me.

through this incident i've matured a hell damn lot. , understood the true meaning of true love from a kin. Alright now i've have it, experience it, i wanna say its just too much for me, i'm just a boy.

Deep in my heart, there's always a place for my grandmother, always collating images of her feeding me. And right now on this page, i wanna say it to whoever, please give me one more chance to be with my grandmother, be it 5 seconds, 5 mins or 50 mins.

I'll cherish with a whole heart.

And of course, 2009 is a year that gave me the chance to enjoy music, especially great pieces of music from great musicians of all time, be it federic Chopin, F. Liszt, beethoven or schumann, or modern pianists such as Maksim, Lang Lang and Li Yundi, its a piece of inspiration , a piece of history, a surge of passion, a burst of love.

Love, takes on many forms, its different for everyone, but i think its mad,

i can't explain it, and i can't control it, its like river, it keeps on flowing

love for a person- strongest human feeling on earth

i know, for the past year there were ups and downs, but to me its just it

i'll keep my share of love for you deep down there, maybe its not expressed

But people do say that the most valuable form of love is the love you want from someone.

so yeah, cheers up!

And 2009, is the year when i became obsessed with sneakers!

Thanks to KOBE for his aspirations and inspirations to me, for both basketball and zoom kobe 4, right next i'm going to use my pay for ZOOM KOBE 5 BABY! debuts at nike flagship store on 16th Jan 2010 and i think i'm gonna camp on the 15 th :D

Alright many thanks to all of you who made this year count, thanks to year 2009

And now, i'm ready for 2010.